I DON’T KNOW

I don’t know why I use this word so many times
Its become a part of me,, yet unacceptable in his lines,
He’s family since a long time now, I agree I sometimes disown,
Yet I keep coming back, with regret and full of moan

I don’t know what I’m gonna be doing in a year from now
What lifes got in store for me, I can just bow
I don’t know what it is that’ll keep me alive,
And help me get over this ugliness of life,

Im sorry are another two words, which I use too often,
For promises I didn’t keep, and faltered till they got rotten,
I expect it all the time, for him to understand,
Forgive me even when I bumble and take an unreasonable stand

I don’t know why I use these words so many times
Sorry I forgot to mention “I forgot” is one of the lines
I confess it’s the answer to most of his questions,
Telling him I got busy in my very own notions

Im trying to recall what happened in this one situation
I don’t know why I said “Sorry I forgot to mention”
He questioned me about something, I should have left a tag,
The fact that I wrote everything in a letter kept in his bag.

Why Sacrifice?

M back on the same page, where life doesn’t seem to remember the good old days,
N now at this moment, m thinking about how our joy turned into pain…

When I open my eyes, I stare….
At anything that reminds me of his smile and shiny glare
Even dreaming of him ..doesn’t spare
Makes me always think of how he shed a tear

Why cant things change..and no one be blamed
Why cant we bind, like way back in time
Why cant we walk this life…Why sacrifice!

I wish he just loves me, the way he did when we held hands and he said, he cared
I shall always surrender, The innocence can make me give away my rage and fear

Will I ever get to see his smile
The way he held my hand when we walked and talked a mile
I picked up the phone to dial,
was stopped by my mind feeling deep and so fragile

Why cant things change..and no one be blamed
Why cant we bind, like way back in time
Why cant we walk this life…Why sacrifice!

I always thought love was, giving everything that you had from all those years,
Until he gave me, what was not his but he got it cos he promised he would bear

Will I ever hear the heart beat again,
My head on his shoulder and sleeping till morning came
The way he said, Please be mine,
Forever until I die and seep back into time

Why cant things change..and no one be blamed
Why cant we bind, like way back in timeWhy cant we walk this life…Why sacrifice!

Are they really special?

Why are Birthdays so special
I really dont see the zest
The other 364 days of the year are
probably better than the rest

You expect a lot
Your happiness decreases
The best friends of the year
Get busy with other pieces

The ones you left unnoticed
While you were busy with the ace of base
Make your one-day worth it
With unexpected wishes showered with grace

It’s the best time for people
To get back at you
Thinking what she did to me was not right
And feelings like, “she forgot mine too”.

I don’t blame them
for such intentional feelings
They probably don’t deserve even a thought
I’ve given them more than greetings.

The Golden Snitch

Others may be nice, I dun deny
The world is after all not all that sly

Family n friends are treasures to keep
The reason for ur smile every night u sleep

But theres one only, the only one
Who can peep inside me n get my pun

My senses, my nerves, work for him
Tell him all before I even feel grim

Always there like an elders finger
I hold on to it and keep on linger

Feel like a child in his arms or walls
Rescuing me from the danger calls

I always promise shall better next time
The next time seems like a promise I mime

N there I am like a naughty child
A fake regret to get him mild

The moment he thinks hes being too harsh
Lets me go and play in my marsh

The Golden snitch is what you are
Others help score but not at par.

The Story of his life….

Long time ago, a prince was born,
With hopes and expectations, his mother had sworn,
He would be her mainstay, her light of life,
Her reason to live, she would love in rife.

Spoilt he never was, he had it all,
He’d seen the struggle, the rich-rag wall,
The feuds, the struggle the sorrow and pain,
She always kept him away from bane.

She sent him away, she knew for good,
He inferred little, the little he could,
She cried many nights, the separation was sore,
He sensed the sobbing, and woke up with gore.

He armed himself with all he could,
Became fortified in things one should,
Back at home, the days were almost done,
Her wait had ended she would soon see her son.

N there he was, with his heart of gold,
She cried like a baby, we were later told,
He held her firm, wiped tears away,
Promised he’d never let, anyone betray.

The baddies were watchin, thinking again,
Whether they should ever look back in that lane,
She couldn’t thank Him enough, her destiny flexed,
Her exile had ended, her son was annexed.

The story hasn’t ended, he has’nt finished yet,
He hid her behind him, his mom couldn’t get,
She saw her emerge, it left an impact,
N guessed at once its time for a new act.